I work now. Which means I am still a homemaker, mom, and keeper of many dogs, and now I work, which is in some ways redundant. Perhaps I should say, that now I work even more, but, no. The difference is more profound: the world of working, and those friction laden feelings that come with it, are unlike anything you find at home, even if you scrubbed your house on your knees with a toothbrush and had many children.
It's been a long time since someone timed my lunch...since I wore so much makeup...since my voice was tired from talking all day.
My husband asked me to write a wish list. I will admit I found it enjoyable to write. I kept tearing it up and starting fresh. A clean slate, and then another clean slate, and then once I turned the list over to him, the fun was gone. Wanting and wishing is feeling more fun than having. What's on my list? Perfume and books mostly... I love both.
I am almost not feeling the energy to cook Thanksgiving. Let me just "poof" it onto the table this year.
And Christmas, oh the emotional baggage of trying to see people, and buy things and plan meaningful experiences. Maybe we will go to church. That sounds lovely. Now if I can just get someone to go with me... Oddly I am the most inclined to go.
However, I love decorating... So far all I have is a wreath. Is it me? or is code tacky now being pushed back to mid November?
Monday, November 23, 2009
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Top Ten Reasons I haven't posted
In honor of David Letterman I decided to write my top ten reasons, or excuses why I haven't posted in months.
10. My husband accidentally spilled a glass of water on my laptop.
9. I now share a laptop with my daughter, which features a broken space bar, a dog chewed electical cord, held together with black electrical tape and a prayer.
8.The small computer repair company which is supposed to be fixing my laptop has recently changed it's name from wefixum to westoreum.
7. In this godforsaken US economy I don't have the ability to buy that new MAC I dream of.
6. The Internet is changing, grandparents and toddlers are friending me on facebook. I never wanted people I know in real life to read this blog because of my confessional style of writing.
5. Because of the confessional nature of my writing, at times I don't want anyone to read it.
4. Depression, the beast with 3 heads and no heart, has been occupying much of time.
3. I have an outside the house job now.
2. I have SEVEN dogs!
1. I was busy having an affair with David Letterman!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Wild Animals want to join my pack...
This groundhog stayed on my mailbox for over an hour. I almost had to sedate the dogs. Called animal control, the police, my husband, no one came. The guy at fish and wildlife told me to whack it with something. Nice, thoughtful wildlife official, what did he have in mind? A shovel. Eventually the groundhog just left. We will never know what he wanted.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Thursday, March 05, 2009
Tips for Dealing With Depression
* Take part in at least one pleasurable activity each day
*Don't isolate yourself from family and friends. Find someone you can talk to. Hang out with happy positive people. Join a social or religious group. Take a class. Volunteer.
*Try not to worry about things you can't control.
*Identify and correct negative thoughts. Consider counseling/therapy to help correct negative views of self, the world and the future.
*Avoid turning to destructive habits such as compulsive eating, alcohol, or drugs, which will always leave you worse off in the end.
*Get a pet! Spend some time listening to or playing music.
*Exercise is a great treatment that is often as, or more, effective than medication. Consider starting with a 10 minute a day walk and gradually increasing to 30 minutes a day. An organized exercise class may be helpful as it has the added benefit of providing interaction with others.
*Good Nutrition is important, especially a diet with lots of omega-3's fatty acids such as those found in fish. A diet containing minimal amounts of starch and sugar prevents drops in blood sugar that can affect mood.
*Get regular and adequate sleep.
*At least 30 minutes of sunlight per day can boost your body's production of the feel-good hormone serotonin.
* A good daily multivitamin containing adequate folic acid, B-vitamins, magnesium, vitamin- D and zinc is important. (Low levels of vitamin D have been linked with depression in some studies)
*Studies suggest that St. John's Wort(600-900 mg daily divided in two doses; use with caution, as interacts with numerous medications) SAM-e (200-400 mg daily) omega-3 fatty acids (6-8 capsules daily), and 5-HTP (precursor to serotonin; take 50-150mg at bedtime) may help particularly for milder forms of depression.
*Realize that some creative people do their most innovative work when depressed, because feeling down forces us to grapple with the difficult realities of life. Remember: You may be living in the nightime now, but morning will come. You will get better!
www.depression.org
www.twloha.com
www.hopeline.com
www.nimh.nih.gov
*Don't isolate yourself from family and friends. Find someone you can talk to. Hang out with happy positive people. Join a social or religious group. Take a class. Volunteer.
*Try not to worry about things you can't control.
*Identify and correct negative thoughts. Consider counseling/therapy to help correct negative views of self, the world and the future.
*Avoid turning to destructive habits such as compulsive eating, alcohol, or drugs, which will always leave you worse off in the end.
*Get a pet! Spend some time listening to or playing music.
*Exercise is a great treatment that is often as, or more, effective than medication. Consider starting with a 10 minute a day walk and gradually increasing to 30 minutes a day. An organized exercise class may be helpful as it has the added benefit of providing interaction with others.
*Good Nutrition is important, especially a diet with lots of omega-3's fatty acids such as those found in fish. A diet containing minimal amounts of starch and sugar prevents drops in blood sugar that can affect mood.
*Get regular and adequate sleep.
*At least 30 minutes of sunlight per day can boost your body's production of the feel-good hormone serotonin.
* A good daily multivitamin containing adequate folic acid, B-vitamins, magnesium, vitamin- D and zinc is important. (Low levels of vitamin D have been linked with depression in some studies)
*Studies suggest that St. John's Wort(600-900 mg daily divided in two doses; use with caution, as interacts with numerous medications) SAM-e (200-400 mg daily) omega-3 fatty acids (6-8 capsules daily), and 5-HTP (precursor to serotonin; take 50-150mg at bedtime) may help particularly for milder forms of depression.
*Realize that some creative people do their most innovative work when depressed, because feeling down forces us to grapple with the difficult realities of life. Remember: You may be living in the nightime now, but morning will come. You will get better!
www.depression.org
www.twloha.com
www.hopeline.com
www.nimh.nih.gov
Monday, March 02, 2009
Snow Day
Unexpected snow storm last night and during the day. Nice to have the family home with me all day. The dogs loved it, the snow really energizes their play.
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